Patience continues to be the area I struggle with the most. I am pushing myself to overcome it, because I will admit sometimes it keeps me from enjoying the moment of life I am in at that time. Lately, a few things tend to get me antsy, my job and my relationship. In both areas I am running this race of where I think in my head I should be with both. My relationship has had some challenges, quite a number of them to be honest and that would most certainly lead us into another blog entry. I believe that we should just move beyond the issues (overnight) and get going to the next phase. However, I believe everything happens for a reason and because I trust God I trust that everything will be okay and happen as it should, when it should. Of course I can say that last part faster than it takes to manifest. It is a process that is actually teaching me a lot about myself, for one slowing down and really getting to know a person for all that they are and getting to know myself. I am amazed at what I did not consider in relationships previously! Number 1 lesson in patience is growth.
Coming in for a close tie is my job, I have been blessed with a job that brought me back to the area I believe I belong in after 10 months of unemployment. Initially, I was going to embark on a new adventure and get things done in an effort to propel me forward, only several things happened, I didn’t think it totally through, I did not address the doubt I was having about the move. Once I had made the move everything changed and it was more than I could handle, even the ever-changing easily bored Sagittarius in me was on a roller coaster ride I was desperate to get off of. So what happened I wanted instant fix, I didn’t want to go back to what was going on before but I wanted some things to come back and again it took 10 months for it all to come together and in the end I have to say the things I set out to change and learn about myself still happened and although it was the most stressful, emotional, uphill battle of my 32 years of life I can honestly say it was well worth it. To see how far I have come, it has taken my struggle of patience up a notch, I have learned the value of “waiting”, a little bit. It won’t happen overnight but I refuse to believe I am incapable of being patient especially when I know that by being patient I am also exercising my faith. I read somewhere that Faith is daring the soul to look beyond what the eye can see. When I think about it, because I have a personal relationship with God I know that is one thing he asks of us to trust him and have Faith, not knowing what is ahead but knowing that it will all be worth it in the end.
So I know I am not alone on this plight to live the best possible life we can live, but what we must do is remain in the moment and know that with Faith and Patience everything we seek to have in life, will be given to us, when the time is right.
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