"Do YOU Boo-Boo..."

                So I know it’s been a few days, and I must say life is moving along nicely! J I am learning to embrace my days and live in the moment! I stopped and thanked God this morning, again specifically for bringing me to the place I am today which is a complete 180 from where I was last year this time. I am so incredibly happy, no negativity in me or around me! Last year this time I was an emotional basket case, I’m not even going to sugarcoat it. My life changed drastically in more ways than I imagined! However, that was then and now, NOW I have this amazing peace within me. I just read in one of my morning devotionals how God has a plan for our lives and its God’s race we are to run, not someone else’s. I have no problems admitting I had influence in my life by my friends and what they had accomplished or had that I didn’t. I had influence on making decisions from my family, for so long I trusted my mom and sisters judgment and it went on for so long that when I attempted to make my own decisions I got side eyes and comments and I cannot totally blame them because I allowed it to happen for so long that when I tried to break free they couldn’t really understand it because it was the way we all knew for so long. Last year I made a few decisions that I have prayed for God to release the regret I feel about them. When I think back on them I am not sure if I completely made them with 100% confidence on my end, I know for some instances I had doubts but I thought if I changed my mind people would comment about my intentions. Little did I know I should have done what felt right to ME because what I soon learned was that nobody is perfect and that at the end of the day my life is just that, MY LIFE! I may not quote this correctly, but a friend of my mine told me a saying her pastor used at church one morning and she shared it with me after a conversation we were having, “Don’t let people do your thinking, because they can’t do your living”. Now again that may not be a direct quote but that is the gist of it and it makes so much sense.

                  I decided to make decisions that were in my best interest, no matter what anyone thinks or says. I knew it would come with tension in the air, and trust me it got silent real quick in my life once I decided to totally follow what I believe is not so much my plan but God’s, in fact I think that is where some of the problems arose, I was trying so hard, I mean so hard to make my life make sense to me that I was going to drastic measures to make it “better”. I put that in quotations because in my mind my life was not at all what I thought it would be at 30 something but you know what it was that exact thinking that stunted my growth. I set limitations on my life when I assumed I should “be” somewhere that I currently wasn’t. God knows my plan and every day I am more and more comfortable using his map to guide me along this race! As you set off today, probably prepping for a 3 days weekend, just remember live the best life you can live for you. To quote my fave comedian, Kevin Hart, “Do YOU Boo-Boo”. LOL

K.I.S.S.

Jae :)